Today's walk...
It took a while to get out of my head today.
I felt I had to work through some "big" issues
related to my faith community. Aspects of my
business are in flux. Along the way, my judge
always takes a few potshots at me too...
I find there's always a pull to stay in my head.
Some people call this our "ego" and it doesn't
want to let go. It wants me to try and reason
things out and refine my answers and my logic.
To come up with the perfect argument and
convince imaginary people who want to debate
with me. There's nothing wrong with that,
I just don't want to live exclusively in my head
anymore and on my walks, in particular, I want
to be present and aware.
I dictated a few ideas into my phone as I walked
and that seemed to help me let go and be
more centered.
At this point in my life, I have about 101 tools
to be more centered and I pulled a few of
those out too.
Also, I find there is a natural physiological
reaction that takes place after I have walked
for about 45 minutes or more where my brain
gets quieter and I am more naturally centered.
This happened too. There was a point in my
walk where the struggle to not be in my head
ended and I realized, "Hey, I feel centered and
present."
Now that I'm home I'm thinking that the only
thing that is permanent is impermanence.
Maybe this is where I will take my stand.
Accepting what is and my divine connection
to all things. Maybe some answers will
emerge from there? And maybe not.
Who knows?
Take good care,
~ Rod